I’m 22 but never been in a relationship, here is why:

This blog contains Avengers Endgame spoiler! I warned you!!

Since the beginning of time, Adam and eve fell in love and… Oh no, I’m not starting like this.

Since I remember, I have seen most of my friends date and eventually fall in love, but it never led to anything, it always ended up with a broken heart (sometimes two).

Throughout Middle school, I tried joining the dating gang, but it took me weeks to realize that it just wasn’t for me. I couldn’t be in a relationship knowing that it was leading nowhere.

However, there is a difference between being in a relationship and being in love because I fell in love more than I can count, and they never reciprocated it so I ended up with a broken heart most of the time (always) but I moved on easily.

I didn’t mind falling in love, to be honest; it was fun yet a rough game; it was like the scariest ride in the park; you enjoy it but it scares you to death.

It always started with a crush, then it developed into more than that. Did the person know? Every time! I used to tell them exactly how I felt (I still do). Did I make a fool of myself? Yes! Was it worth it? Definitely not!

Let me tell you why I confessed knowing it would not lead to anything; I wanted to know what did the other person feel about me, that way their answer would help me figure out my next step, which was always moving on.

If the person doesn’t like me back (their loss), I move on, if they do; I lose interest and move on! (Yeah, I’m one of those people, sue me!).

However, this is not the case anymore; I haven’t fallen for someone in 4 years. I promised myself to never go through heartbreak again since the last person I loved hurt me so bad! The pain was almost as bad as I felt when Tony Stark died (nothing can top Tony’s death).

Love is an enormous word even if it only has four letters, it comes with a tremendous responsibility that I can’t handle, it also comes with pain, stress, and a pinch of waste of time.

‘Oh, but what’s life without a little of heartbreak?’, I got my share of heartbreaks and it taught me a lot:

1- Never fall for someone you don’t know well.

2- Never fall for someone just because he/she is nice to you.

3- Never fall for someone who doesn’t know you exist (I love you, Harry Styles!)

4- Never fall for the first person who gives you a compliment (yeah, that happened once).

‘But how are you going to find “the one” if you don’t date?’ not dating doesn’t mean not meeting new people, I’ll just know when it’s “the one”.

I know that this blog is a bit different from what I usually write, but I wanted to share with you my view on relationships. If you have any interesting subjects I can write about, feel free to let me know.